the ambition to dream

8:02pm: Note on Prop 8
Clever, oh so clever.

My city has a large Asian demographic (Wiki says 45%) although Arcadia schools have students of Asian descent make up at least 65% of their population. Most of these Asians, as far as I understand (especially if my parents are any example) are conservative.

Now I've been hearing "No on Prop 8" commericals on KROQ and KBIG, which is brilliant. I didn't hear any for "Yes" (although I'm wondering if certain other channels have it). However, just how, on the ASIAN radio station, a commercial for "Yes" on Prop 8 just sprung through loud and clear. (Unfortunately the vocabulary is more complicated and I didn't understand much more than it was a "Yes on Prop 8" and "don't let them violate the sanctity of marriage" spiel.

Clever tactic to air on the Asian stations. D:

(Also, my mom is rather set on Yes on Prop 8 [this indicates my dad is most certainly so]. Unfortunately their English is not the best and my Mandarin is as good as their English, so... I find it very difficult to explain why it is a bad idea. (Or maybe it's simply the limit of my persuasive power. I did try with my mom, a little, just now when she bought it up.)

6:11pm: Halloweeeeeeeeen!
Happy Halloween again!

I currently feel like a lump so I'm starting to straighten out the horror that is my Bookmarks. I came across this article: http://www.reuters.com/article/newsOne/idUSTRE4998X420081101?pageNumber=2&virtualBrandChannel=0

Reaction: My governor is doing what for McCain?! So I head over to his site. Failing to see an article on his journey to be a prop for McCain, I type it in the search box and turn up this: http://gov.ca.gov/speech/5492/

Ah, friends! And McCain totally scratched his back last year with his work. It explains.

Still.

1:44am: Halloween! Halloweenies! Hello! :D
Happy Halloween everyone!

It's my favorite holiday, but I never seem to do anything for it.... probably because I never actually do anything about the thought of planning something for it.;

4:17pm: What's going on?
I saw at least 3 "Yes" on Prop 8 signs or bumper stickers and 4 "McCain/Palin" signs on lawns when I drove out and back for my dentist appointment today. Nothing for "No" or "Obama."

One of those "Yes" on Prop 8 signs is on the lawn of a house right next to an elementary school. I saw crowds of little crowds walking around it on the way to the crosswalk. I know my city's considered conservative, but this lean... is like saying discrimination is okay in the first case and irrational in the second.

One of the guys I knew from back at school who's one of the most radical and social-action consumed advocates I know has blasted for voting for the McKinney-Clemente from the Green Party ticket instead, even if you support Obama. I read the additional note/article explicating the issue, but when I see or think about the possibility some miscalculation or assumption will cost Obama the presidency (ala the Nader black horse) and allow McCain-Palin to win, I cannot follow his example even though the argument is a good one and the Green Party indeed pushes every cause I agree with.

We simply cannot afford to have Palin and McCain win.

But, a black woman president and a Hispanic woman vice president is an unprecedented and awesome combination.

http://www.opednews.com/articles/Support-Obama-and-Vote-Mc-by-Amee-Chew-081028-370.html

11:16pm: Meltdown imminent.
You know that thing, where they tell you it's best to be prepared before shit happens instead of preparing when shit happens?

TRUE. It's all true! SO VERY TRUE! @(#*KKUUHHHHH!!! ::flail of the doomed::

*_* I kind of missed this feeling of impeding doom. I'm going to go write it all down on scratch paper now to sort it out before my lack of time management and discipline sabotage me again.

5:36pm: Cleaning update
::waves little white flag::

No more recording doujinshi. I'm going to try to just resort the sell/hold on/keep piles and go from there. Else, I can spend another week just re-cataloging the doujinshi.

Also, I just found out JET applications must be received by 11/25.

::yes, panic::

1:02pm: Cleaning and stuff.
I'm thinking there are two practical uses for having public online journals. One is to connect with others, particularly your friends, and the other is to share information. Sorry if this seems obvious, but I am thinking about it just now.

I've been just posting as certain things come up and I remember to when I have free time (which is actually the most I've ever had right now), and I know it's fine. However, I'm reading Yamasaki-san's journal on my LJ flist and it's really fun and interesting to read because she's sharing information about items, culture, and locations. (Yamasaki-san is the general manager for ITM4U, one of the two deputy services I use and I believe one of the best available on the Web.) I really like that... I think I'll try to do more of those kinds of posts. I'm not sure if I should just section it to a different journal, though... I know I'm not into writing only for other people since I don't want to worry if my posts are entertaining enough or relevant enough.

I think I might convert the IJ I originally intended as a sales journal to cater towards evaluations of things like djka artists, books/doujinshi, possibly locations and stuff like that. But if I do get to turn back to evaluating actual politics and more proper information (which I haven't, I'm completely at sea right now), I'm thinking maybe I should keep it here instead... Something to ponder very quickly.

Made a little more leeway into checking my doujinshi collection. The sale isn't going as immediately as I was hoping, but it's not completely ignored like I was afraid of. I think it's going okay. :) There are a few collections I think I might also let go of... but in sets. But they'll be rather expensive for the tight-on-money fan's terms. ^^; I guess we'll see... they would make cool Christmas presents, so it's possible someone would want them.

There were a considerable amount of doujinshi I picked up during my stint with Otaku-ya (now I think they turned me away when they restricted their services to old customers and referrals because my constant auction requests were more troublesome to process on their end and they probably felt handling my business wasn't worth it) because they were relatively cheaper and they looked interesting... (also I was stalling from studying at uni in late nights... some people eat, some people watch porn, and well... apparently I fall into the shopping category as well as the doodling/reading fanfic one). However, such doujinshi tended not to be ones I absolutely had to have (i.e. ones I'd regard as part of my core collection). Hence... well... sorting... Also, I didn't really log my new purchases while at uni so it's gotten a bit out of hand.

There's also the manga I picked up while in Taiwan when I was younger... I've stopped getting them since domestic companies have started producing them here AND scanlation teams provide them in passable to excellent English (my Mandarin isn't very good), but I still have what I got and I should probably try to sell most of them off as well.

With doujinshi and random packing materials sewn all over my room, I'm actually still avoiding thinking about cleaning, but I still pretty much have NO IDEA where my things from my trip abroad and the last quarter of uni actually are... (some of it is probably scattered around the house.)

...and with it being a total mess, not to mention the disorganized/split state of my computers, I really want to avoid thinking about researching for career plans, which is quite bad, I know.

I'm figuring I need to sort "sell, "sell after the definitely sell ones get out," and "keep" piles, synch and clear up superificial stuff on my computers, and find recent papers at least before I get to it.... and that needs to start next week. D: I'm feeling a little uneasy and some of the pressure from knowing nothing about what to do next.... the meaninglessness!

....also, Nanowrimo and Nanomango are coming up and I was thinking this time I can finally have the time to do it, but I don't know... also there's that offer by Yaoi-Con admin to take submissions of doujinshi to take to Winter Comiket as part of a display (I don't think I'd have the time to do it... wish I could). I think I also need a calendar to keep myself straightened out. :/

I skipped that checkup appointment I had yesterday. I sort of overslept, but I did know better... although I couldn't remember what time I was supposed to go. Like mom was saying, he'll probably just ask me what's up, tell me to wait a little more if I had symptoms from side effects, and then send me on my way... and that'd cost $15 co-payment. I don't know, I've still had some heart palpations I kind of wanted to ask him about, but it's very likely he'd just tell me to take it easy and wait some more because he tends to do that. Hey, he called me back at 7 PM after his hours to say "guess I missed you, sorry, go to the hospital if you have serious problems!" before going off on vacation when I realized I was having serious side effects from the meds last time.

I didn't have a high opinion of him since he only cared about addressing what you called in for most of the time (or just handling "one thing at a time") but he turned out to be alright I guess. Blue Cross doctor, I'm insured under my mom... which expires around March next year I think. Anyway, yeah.

I suddenly thought of Lady Raven too. I haven't spoken to her since junior high/high school, I think. ...I think I want to write her and see how she is and where she ended up.

7:07pm: Slowly going through the doujinshi
Conclusion: There's no way I'm checking off every single doujinshi in my collection until I get rid of most of the "for sell" ones. For the first time I feel a familiarity with the phrase "swimming in" books. XD;;

That aside, this has got to be the first time I have ever seen the currency exchange rate at 94 yen to 1 USD. AMAZING! They say the Asian stock markets are crashing, but it seems to have gained strength against the dollar... which actually reduces their export/import international sales, so maybe... Hm. But in cases of bad economy, it's natural to try to reduce exports to keep the cash flow within the country borders in an attempt to let the economy recover, I suppose?

I just sent in a request to a deputy service to buy some doujinshi, so I checked. It looks as if it will be a little more costly than expected. f^^; However, as they're for Romper Room and Luke 1008 doujinshi... I was crazy with delight when by total chance I looked in on Romper Room's site yesterday and saw they were accepting orders until 11/2 (PST). I got my hands on one of her Oofuri anthologies once through SMJ and it is the most amazing and developed stories I've had the pleasure of reading.

I was recording the handful of Dan Madoka One Piece doujinshi I have when I really looked at "Death Penalty" properly. It was one of the featured ones Toshi had on Happy Otaku site way back when... and it really is a great piece of work. (Unfortunately the copies I got are pretty well worn, but nonetheless.) I teared up. :X

I need to rearrange my time so I can work on other things at the same time as cleaning up or I'll really be an idiot. :/ In some ways this is kind of boring but in others I still have so much backlog I can't have nothing to do. ^^;;;

Also, I finally got off my arse and wrote to Mari. She replied today! *^^* And nearly flattened me with shock (a good kind) by inviting me to her wedding next year. *^^* Her invitation makes me really really happy. I don't know if I can go but if I can manage it, I definitely would... although I would be awkward with such huge crowds of people I don't know. :D;;; (Mom says my great-uncle WOULD go, and he's the only actually blood tie I've got there... aside from my distant aunt's husband, but...)

Need to answer a few overdue mail and write some other people. :) Bro's back this weekend~ :3

8:51pm: Friends already knew this but...
I, I'm so sadistic. ::WEEP::

Finally completed my sales post for 269 doujinshi (now 258 with 10 on hold). I placed the post on LJ because of necessity... anyone here interested, the post is here.

My own record of my doujinshi collection is criminally out of the date. I've started going through and trying to log them now. It's pretty likely I'll turn out more doujinshi and repost with more doujinshi next month or the following month. However, I would like to get the ones I really don't want to keep off my hands before letting go the ones I'd let go with some regret... hoping things will go smooth. :)

....that said, apparently I'm only missing ONE doujinshi, A COPY BOOK (VIII), that concludes the Haruna/Abe doujinshi series by Fuku-Zin I've collected. DDD: ....want. Guuhhh. (Again, I'm rather sadistic. :X)

Uh. Organizing my doujinshi collection is almost like cleaning my room right? In a round-about, it's gotten MORE messy (temporarily) kind of fashion... still trying to get to cleaning and then starting to plan for what next... :X :X

Edit: Okay. This might be a task of more monumental proportions than I originally thought.

3:32pm: Rise Against - Appeal to Reason
Both Rise Against CDs are amazing.

Their newest album "Appeal to Reason" tops their previous album "The Sufferer and the Witness" (unfortunately I listened to AtR first, but SW is still awesome!) and wow, I love most-- okay, all-- of the songs! At this moment I like Long Forgotten Sons, Re-Education, Entertainment, and Savior the most from the AtR album. Hero of War is a special slice of elegance that really cuts you to the bone.

Liberals will definitely appreciate the lyrics, which are top quality, but they're not radical enough it will turn off conservatives-- I really believe any globally-conscious conservative will also be able to enjoy the CD. :)

I bought the Eco-Pack and, like I half-suspected, it was a paper case instead of a plastic one, BUT this case is made from recycled materials and from vegetable inks. It also came with a Peta sticker inside-- how fucking COOL is that? Do most bands do that? I'm really glad I decided to buy their CDs-- hell even if I knew for sure the Eco-Pack was a paper case I probably would've bought it!

I highly recommend anyone not adverse to rock/punk to get their CDs!!! Also sharing my copy with you for now if you're not sure. It's worth it.

2:08pm: More on Luce magic
General announcement: ....did nothing this week. :X In school term terms, it would roughly be week 6 tomorrow, wouldn't it? I have to get on it in the next few days and see about contacting the couple of professors that I spoke with before.;;

It also occurs to me to share how Luce fixed my laptop problem.

My HP laptop had lost all internet capability, wireless and cable, after I tried to uninstall the expired trial version of Norton Antivirus that had come with my laptop. I, with much help from others, tried:

• refreshing IP/refreshing adaptar
  
• innumerable Windows diagnostics (which helped with nothing)
  
• directly plugging in the internet cable
  
• CMD run as administrator on flushing and renewing dns and refreshing ip configuration
  
• dis/enabling network on my computer
  
• ensuring ip6 and ip4 connections were properly caliberated
  
• uninstalling and reinstalling network drivers
  
• etc.
  

Nothing worked.

Considering my network abilities were shot, thinking about remote access investigation is a laugh. Also, letting Microsoft diagnostics search for a solution online pretty much was a Catch-22, it had to go with what was already d/led.

I was about ready to contact HP Support when I finally went to visit Luce to hang out. (Bringing the laptop along was simply a bonus.) She was about ready to toss in the towel after an hour, but praise Chaos for her doggedness and the power of Google.

The problem was the uninstallation of the Norton Antivirus-- the apparently incomplete uninstallation. [I figured it had something to do with the uninstallation, but... How totalitarian is it to REQUIRE Norton Antivirus for your laptop to work? Having it necessary seemed vaguely illegal.]

Using the Add/Remove Windows function is a no-no for uninstalling Norton Antivirus (the various virulent and hateful comments by the online tech support were hilarious and much sympathized with). You actually need to download a program specialized for eradicating all traces of Norton from your computer system caled "Norton Removal Tool." (And possibly a data dump, but once Luce used the removal tool, my network resurrected immediately.) Keep a note on this if you ever try to toss out Norton and things with your computer stop working. If things uninstall improperly, the bits left behind screw with your computer processes.

5:17pm: WHAT?
やる気がアル！！！

5:03pm: Week One of Freedom
1. Porn really CAN consume your soul. orz [Originally, I was just looking for Skip Beat 1. D:]
2. SKIP BEAT HAS AN ANIMEEEEEEE---- (But it doesn't look very good. ;_; ::holds out hope::) PS-- Chapter 129? FUCK. OMG, YES! ♥♥
3. I didn't do anything this week. D: ::room still not cleaned, books not scanned::
4. Antichrist Superstar isn't that great, but RISE AGAINST IS AWESOME. AWESOOME! Anyone interested?
5. ......Wait. I FORGOT ABOUT THE DN II MOVIE SHOWING THIS WEDNESDAY.||| ::still hasn't opened box set or DVD::
6. DDD:
7. RISE AGAINST ♥♥♥

4:03pm: So you want to know about...
My room:
going in
my desk (yes, that IS my glorious Death Note box set... still haven't opened because I'm afraid of what my plunnies will do)
which is still not clean
but is admittedly better than my shelves
or the floor which hasn't seen light for years

In other pictures, the stuff I've been slowly writing a sales post up for:
http://blacksheep.organized-mess.com/encrypt/room06.jpg
http://blacksheep.organized-mess.com/encrypt/room07.jpg

Actually I should finish with the text side today and get to scanning and then finally have it up.;;

Edit 11:57 PM: I am DONE writing text! Now to scan and then paste online!! Also, went to mall today and picked up some clothes from stores throwing sales. Need to return two shirts tomorrow though because they don't quite fit right. D:

6:44pm: Finally cut loose.
FREEEEEEEEEEEDOM!!

Sort of. Now I have to own up and be responsible.;;; No more work starting Monday!

10:20am: ここまでか！
来た。ぜ。

11:25pm: Still behind...
Mom is right. The state of my room cannot continue. It looks distinctly like a hack warehouse and I'm beginning to wonder exactly how many bugs are hiding out under the mess. I took pictures to share with you, but my laptop isn't recognizing my camera anymore and trying to find the software CD for it is insanity. I'm have no clue where I put the software/tech supplies from my study abroad. (I bought this camera while I was in England to replace the one I lost at Pleasure Beach.) And, I'm too lazy to open my desktop just for the sake of getting those photos right now.

Also, I strongly infer I will be stopping work soon. After I finish retyping the maintenance contracts and get it beta'd by uncle, I think he's going to let me go. The state of the office is a skittish, ambitious thing, but hopefully it will all work out. Jenn's coming back at the end of the month so.... :D*

I've reached the point where I want to go and I kind of don't want to. But I have to get back to researching for a career and next steps soon... after buying that service with Career Svcs back in June, I've yet to use it. I have until December before I'm cut off... I suspect if I don't contact the few professors that may help me with a letter of rec by November, I'm going to be shit out of luck on that front too. I haven't set up for Alumni services either. I haven't done a lot of things.

D:

First step (still in progress after over a month... make a sales post and clean my desk-- the latter sounds simple, but... well.... I'll get those photos up soon) first.

3:27pm: Glory!!! :shine::
HALLELUJAH!!!

Luce has repaired my universe!!!!! ::tears of joy::

Two months later, after possibly 100 hours (between me and my dad)and consultation with two CS majors/computer tech buddies, Luce (third CS major/comp tech buddies) fixed my laptop's Net-lessness within an hour!

....Pure Genius!

::worships ♥♥♥::

9:48pm: And at the close of the week...
Mom bought me one hell of a souvenir. I know I asked for a necklace, but I know I'm going to feel like I'm wearing a wallet around my neck when I have it on. Indigo crystal. It looks classy but very low-key on pricey, which is good! (At least to me it is, but I have no eye for these things. Hence, the surprise.) I'm really glad she didn't pick up some cheap trashy aluminum chain, but wow.

Parents have returned! Looks like they had fun which is great! Mom also got sick during the trip though. :/ Aww. She ended up staying home from work today, and ended up feeling better. I ended up taking off work yesterday because my throat was feeling inflamed again but I went in today. Voice still gone to shit, but I was mostly okay. Starting feeling a little woozy around lunch, but staggered home and all! ...man I hope I'm good for Sunday when I go to see my buddy in Irvine or our conversation will be more nonexistent than merely boring.

Imaginary scenario:
L: So how've you been?! :D
me: .....::rasp:: :Db
L: Ah, cool. Great to see you, so what do you want to do?
me: .... sggh.... ::cough:: .....
L: Right! And for dinner?

...;;; There's some sort of fair on water tomorrow for my city. I want to go check it out... need to look up the address.

Totally stalled on working for the doujin. Also, things are going slowly with the sales post. ....I am still pretty tired. ARGH. Must work on ittt. :X When I think about I've yet to research and try to contact the few professors that might remember me, I cower. Pathetically. And pretend it doesn't exist.

orz

9:23pm: Thanks for the meal~
I thought too highly of myself. I suddenly feel pretty tired, so I guess I'm not all better from the cold yet. :/ Damn, I haven't done anything yet. Haha, I guess I'm going to have to prioritize myself on what I should try to get to tonight. ;_;

The trip was worth it though. Picked up some mochi for the office tomorrow and got ramen. It really is not as good as Shinsengumi's quality, but it's still decent and I enjoyed it. :) (I got lost on the way to find Phoenix, how's that for embarrassing? I need to go out more. ^^)

My Death Note box set DID come today! *^^* It looks GORGEOUS, but unfortunatelly it arrived with a severe dent to one of the corners. I think I'll have to ask for a replacement... it is supposed to be a collector's item and it is supposed to be $63. I'll have to ask about getting into dad's Amazon account to ask for the return though.

In addition to my lack of drawing, I've completely stalled on the Zetsubou doujin stuff. :D;;; Ahaha.... OTL Maybe it's just a combo of my cold, cataloguing my djs, and the need to clean... (since I'm by myself I've been cooking and washing up all my dishes and that takes up a good chunk of my time after I get back from work... weekend, bro was back (and I did finish a Jun on Sat which is going to be trashed anyway [God I suck, I need to actually PRACTICE drawing the characters]) and then I was sick, which pretty much killed any creativity.

Mmm. :<

;_;

6:30pm: So I went back to work.
Most amusing joke I've heard all day:

Uncle J: Double E graduates always are in demand!
new girl G: Really? Maybe I'll major in that then! [On the subject of going back to university in the States.]

.....

AHAHAHA-- [Her? EE?! With her results after being an English Literature major? ::rotf::]

And Jamie think she's bad when she's praying "Oh god yes, go back to school! Go back and be a full-time student!"

In other not very happy news, Jamie reported she spent 7 hours yesterday fixing errors all over the company's AR accounts. :X For a moment I thought I

I've been droning on and on lately, m'bad. Haven't had anything cool to talk about lately though... Although, since I didn't go to YCon, I've been working on writing down the details since last Wednesday for a massive sales post. I might be reaching the halfway point soon and then I'll have to get to scanning. I was really hoping I'd finish before my parents come home tomorrow night, but I'm not sure I can do it... (Hey, I tallied up around 250 doujinshi I wanted to sell right away.) I also gotta start cleaning a little tonight so it's not just as messy as well they left when they come back tomorrow. :/

That aside, I realized today I haven't, ah, really drawn. Much. At all. On either Tegaki accounts.;;; OTL ARGGGGH. Plus, all That. Still backlogged. (@&*$#(@* I must make headway!!! :< ...I need to take this one step at a time while keeping a tail on the bigger picture!!

...I crave ramen, so I better get going and make good on that craving before it gets dark enough I lose motivation.;; I might post more later, I think I'm forgetting to babble about something..!

9:31pm: Sick.
I caught a cold Sunday. It was a pretty relaxing weekend and nice to have bro back, although he just kind of chilled and hung out with his friends and we didn't really do anything. I think when I accidentally fell asleep again in a tanktop on Saturday, I got chilled in the night or something. Ahaha--

So ironically I had to take Monday and Tuesday off from work. I think I'm mostly okay now although I've been huddled in bed the last two days. Making that trip to Ralphs for cold medicine was interesting, I felt wobbly. Also, I have lost my voice. I feel some serious inflammation in my throat so I'm wondering if the cold's altered my voice again... however, I didn't really speak at all so maybe it's okay.;

It's kind of a good thing I stopped taking all my medication from the allergic reaction since I don't know if I could've taken cold meds with them and Dr. Ling's gone on vacation (I found his late returned call too late to call him back so I decided to just stop taking the meds. In the meantime, my heart seems more or less back to normal).

....I feel completely useless.;; Need to work on that. :/

11:36am: I tell the people who ask lately I'm generally okay, but it's probably a matter of perspective.

I've kept to myself since my parents took off for their two-week vacation last weekend. Bro and I didn't interact much, but when he's not here I still feel conscious of it. We dropped him off for his first year of college last Saturday; hope it's all going well so far. Despite the emergency rations of Cup O' Noodles the first night.

After the person I was going to YCon changed details again and we had a... "charged exchange," I've canceled my YCon plans and forfeited the money I already paid to the poor girl I had arranged rooming with at the con. My weekend would've been miserable if I'd gone. I really regret missing out on meeting the girl, and her group, I asked to room with though.

I feel I can say G, the new girl, is settling into the office but the first two weeks were rough for the accounting office's mental health. Her competence is still a little shaky, but she's definitely improved.

The likelihood that my confused pat answer of "Pedizone" to "Are you allergic to any medication" is actually "Prednisone," my current prescription is turning out to be high. I haven't broken out in a rash, but I've discovered the heart palpations/arrhythmia I've been experiencing is a side effect of the meds I've been taking for my allergic reaction from last week. It's just dawned on me that's not the only one I've been experiencing. Well, the minor heartburn and difficulty breathing (I had described it as coughing) were obvious, and I expected the additional drowsiness, nausea, and munchies, but the other stuff I didn't realize. I've contacted the doctor today to ask if I can stop taking it since he told me to continue at our checkup on Wednesday even after I told him about the heart problem. The secretary told me she'd get back to me and to stop in the meantime. Even though I haven't taken it since yesterday (forgot to get breakfast) I've still had some some heart symptoms but I think it's been considerably better than Wednesday's.

Yesterday, I also completely checked out. I essentially read fanfiction all day and simply ate lunch. I've been a little messed up the last two mornings. To top it all off, my period finally checked in today, a week late... right after I skipped taking the meds yesterday.

I'm going to try to just chill out all weekend. For real.

10:48pm: Start of two weeks of freeeedooommm~
Alone.




._.

Will elaborate if time permits.

9:52pm: Bug bites
So the bug bites (at this point I really don't know if I should say mosquito) I got on Monday on my feet turned into a real problem. They swelled up like crazy. At first I thought it was just the usual, but then it got much worse than the swelling ones I had in Taiwan. By Tuesday night, they were so inflamed it started to hurt to stand and I had pins-and-needles feeling when I walked. They felt numb around the edges. And the tissue felt squishy.

That's when I kind of freaked out and decided I needed to see the doctor (even though generally I didn't think they help... well, either they really do or they really don't).

Confirmed it was a bad allergic reaction and got me two kinds of pills and a salve. The swelling's starting to go down and feel better so I'm really glad I went. Even if the meds are affecting me.

One of the pills is supposed to give me the munchies. The other one is supposed to make me nauseous. I think both make me drowsy, among other possible things.

...it really is possible to be both hungry and queasy simultaneously. orz

Even more sleepy than usual. I think I'm still about the same level of tired and I do feel unusually woolly-headed.